Wuts in your world?

wow

2008-07-13T08:10:16Z

well this is the first time, in like prolly 2-3 years.
anyways, i guess i'm pretty good, not really. not at all actually.
my lover left me like 2 months ago, i still feel liek shit.
this girl i really really like is dating this total idiot.
fucking piece of shit, and she enjoys spending every second with me!
but nooo she feels that she loves him.
well if she did she wouldn't suck my dick now would she?

anyways i'm really drunk right now. and kinda really stoned.
i feel somewhat better. i drove drunk. i did good though cause it was a straight go. just regulating the stops.

but yeah, i called my ex. first time to talk to her since she broke up wtih me. talked for exactly 6 mins.

i was so happy for that moment.
then either she or her stupid new boyfriend grabbed the phone and hung it up.
so... i don't know
made me feel so bad.
she could have atleast gave me a lame excuse to leave.
instead of just turning off her phone.
that really upset me.

so i was really fucking drunk and stoned for sams party cause he might have some cancerous thing in his brain.

but yeah, i was really drunk. Rob picked me up and dropped me off.
at my house.

i tryed finding someone to help me, but everyone had their phones off or just wouldn't answer.
so... i had to walk to the house i was at. and drive my care home.
i made it fine though.
i'm still alive. i'm not too suprised cause it was a straight shot.
but. i dunno
no one would help me?
that was upsetting.
but yeah, that was my day... well noo.
earlier i woke up. ate breakfast, took a shower. but before the wshower i watched a pretty good movie. called I am reed fish. pretty interesting... then i took a shower and met my friend at Starbucks.
sat there... doing nothing.
then went to the party.
man today was shitty.
parties aren't even fun. having that girl to love is much better.

i dunno. man lots of stuff happened. since jessie left me she took half my friends with her. they all hate me cause they always wanted to fuck jessie.
i had my cancer scare.
which was... sCarey. of course.
i don't ave cancer tho so i'm good.
my dad might lose his job. which that will be terrible.

anywho i guess i'll update again later.

start a new

2006-02-18T22:37:22Z

hey,
so my birthday is tommorrow ill be 17..yes!
i still dont have my licence though. i need to get it. like badly.
rawr lol. flipping a year after i still dont have it.
anyways. me and jessie have been ating for 3 months now! yes! we have had our lil troubles but they always get fixed.
so..
yesterday
i smoked.
yeah.
it was terrible im never doing it again.
i forgot how terrible i felt.
i always do something stupid.
never again.
so my freinds are awsome.
life is pretty damn good right now bsides what i did yesterday.
makes me mad.
im no longer going to over anaylize things.
that is a thing of the past.
i need to remember to record my dreams.
anyways, im going to lay down.
bai

ZOLOFT

2006-02-07T00:28:07Z

ahhh

so yeah...after friday...saturday i went to jessies....EVERYTHING is like...102394810394812034% better now...

so thats cool, im so happy

and uh, i went the psychiatrist today..
im perscribed zoloft now.
lets see if this helps, b.c

as i noticed when i read over all my stuff.

i go from pissed off and sad, to happy constantly.
and like...i freak out about stuff that isnt a big deal.

i dont know

lets see how everything changes over time
im going to start recording my dreams.

w00t

this will be fun...i need to remember to write it down when i wake up though.

ok yeah

bai

long time no see

2006-02-04T06:15:34Z

well.
i havnt written in this in a long time
so julius...

life as of now and past time

ive been dating jessie for like...2 months and a half.
its been great. she was my best girlfriend yet... the nicest sweetest most inocent.

well

whatever... right now its dying. im fucking it up like always. if i kept my damn mouth shut
ya know?

fucking remember that bitch(im the bitch by the way...im telling myself to remember)

well other than that...
i upgraded my graphics card to a e-Geforce 7800GT and 500 watt power supply and a 300 gig sata drive.

thats pretty cool
and some kid greg has been talkin shit about me...i dont even know tis lil shit. but yeah

i dont know im over it, he is just jelous that my computer rapes the fuck out of his.

yeah
well
note to self...feelings are for you only and no one else. you tell them then it just blows into your face.
never tell the truth, it makes things worse, just keep on pretending.

note to self again...look for that gothic girl...lost in this darken world.

alright yeah well thats my update

well to my previous entry

2005-12-23T06:23:01Z

so
i went to frys today.
went to build my own pc with a 1000$ budget
some how got talked into buying a 1300$ computer witha Pentium 4 duel core(speed: 3 ghz) 1 gig ddr ram 200 gig hard drive..and some integrated intel video card

BUT realizing...if i spent 300 more $ on peices...i can make my machine better
well..
i did
so my computer has
a Asus A8N-SLI Deluxe mother board(supports AMD 939 pin athlon fx prcessors, 4 gis of ram, 2 PCI EXPRESS graphics cards, and has everything else on it lan card sound card ect.)
I got a AMD Duel Core 3800+ proccesor
2 1 gig DDR ram sticks
E-GeForce 6600 GT GDDR 3 256 mb PCI express card
and then i got a DVD burner, im using my 120 gig drive from my other computer...and my other disc drive as well as my floppy from that...and all the ribbens and anything else that is important.
my case has a 420 watt power supply no LEDs or fancy fans..thats for later
and i got a 7.1 speaker system.
oh yeah
im happy lol
and thats my christmas hahaha

alright now onto other things...tis been 2 days sense ive seen jessie*tear* but tomorrow! ima be with her the whole day! YAY!!!! fun fun fun!
ah this is a point in life that is really good, i hope it doesnt not end...in a week...lol
i got a bad headache....
anyways yeah.wooot
fun fun fun
bai bai bai (jessie=awsome)

hello.

2005-12-22T00:02:25Z

so its dec 21 xmas 4 days from now.
it sucks, i dont hav anything to open on xmas.
is it me or has the spirit of chrismtas died?
its not much of anything anymore but... a day where i get more money.
its sad

on the other hand
me and jessie = spectactular!
i need to go get some presents for people...
lol basicaly just jessie..
and somethin for kevin b.c kevin got me a present last year so i will return the favoure

rawrizard so tonight im going to some flippin park to look at lights
w00t..
not really

yeah
well
life is great
except the disapointment of nothing for christmas
its alright though the only present i want is jessie, and i cant wait to unwrap her lol

ahhhh

2005-12-08T22:02:02Z

i got mono...not strep throat
so ive been staying home all week long...its not that bad but i havnt seen any of my freinds sense friday...and sat

pretty long time id say

anyways

yeah
visit me people

ive been sitting on the computer 24/7 doing make up work and playing diablo...kinda fun then not!

and i havnt seen jessie sense wednesday...hopfuly ill see here this weekend..i better get better or ill kill!!!

LITTLE PEOPLE, KILL PEOPLE!!!

Sooooo

2005-12-06T05:16:07Z

This weekend...wast errible. i was so sick, but ...

...

CHILDREN OF BODOM!!!!!!!!! OMFG
SO FUCKING AMAZING AHHH
TEH SEX!!!!!!

i had so much fun at the concert, but now i have strep throat so im sicker...sucks alot.
i havnt seen jessie sense wednesday, rawr!!!!
im not sure if im going to school tomorrow...
i would like one more day to relax...that owuld be terrific but i want to get better ahhhhhhhhh
anyways yeah im wanting to see aeon flux this weekend. its based off an old anime incase noone knew that...aparently its not an anime b.c its not on animeNFO.com
gay
.

art show

2005-11-30T03:44:01Z

oh yeah.

Humble Civic Center Benefit Show.

If anyone would be interested in showing any kind of sculpture, painting, sketch, short story, films, anything. There will be a benefit show in Jan. at the Old Humble Civic Center and it would be an honor if anyone would like to show their work and mind. I don't want to have to put a date on it but if you could please message me back or call me by December 1st I would be greatful. If you have any other questions and are interested just give me a call thanks for your time and have a wonderful day/night. Sorry if you have seen this bulletin more then once.
Peace. Aaron Goldman.

Cell: 281 732 8364
.. Airon1234

Share the Soul.

aaron is organizing it. one of the nicest guys in the world. so please join him at the show.

Today was relaxful

2005-11-30T03:43:42Z

so, i woke up for school knowing i was going to get a terrible headache like yesterday...
and i did, so my mom came to get me at 12 30 but the stupid school couldnt get me a note till 12 50.
yeah well anyways.
i came home slept, listend to Lamb of God.
it was fun.
i like sleeping.
and yeah that was my day! i went to tylers house, i forgot that. hung out with matt brett tyler and ashley for a bit..shelley came over. i had a cigerette.
eh...atleast it was only one! im trying to quit by the way for any of you who dont know.
i came home. called jessie talked to her for i dont know..long time or so. ate food...tv, food tv now im here! and i have some math homework to do.
but yes anyways. the bon fire pit is no more i think.

the break is over

2005-11-28T05:12:59Z

we got school tomorrow, woooo
hopfuly i can get out of it, b.c im sick like doom!
and sleep is hard b.c i cough constantly.

anyways today was awsome, ill speak about it latre, i cant breath to good right now.

Fires of hell on earth.

2005-11-24T06:10:40Z

I built a fire pit in my backyard, i had my second fire today. pretty nifty lil thing to do sense there isnt much to do in kingwood, i dont think people had much fun, but whatever im sick as a dog, and i love fire.

hopfuly next bon fire, i can get sum liquor...of some sorts so it can be more intersting.

well, yeah i dont have much to say about anything right now. except there is one girl on my mind, she knows who she is, but i keep making things really weird and ackward...one day ill learn.

adios
~jesus~

hi

2005-11-09T00:37:23Z

yeah, so update...
totaly rad.
today was ackward, my friend was supose to fight some fat mexican, but the kid locked himself in his house and made his dad talk to my friend.
funny haha.

and uh..
this stupid lady was bitching at me and my freinds for PEACEFUL and QUIETLY standing and talkin in the street. she said it was illegal and that she was going to call the cops. I told that bitch out!
"Actualy Loitering is Completly LEGAL unless INFRONT of a Shop or place WITH a SIGN that says its ILLEGAL, and its Illegal past curfew." and she said "i dont care im going to call the cops if you all dont leave"

it was really stupid i wanted to kill, my freinds still left. i wanted to stay. but whatever.
i want to kill!
i hate people! SO FUCKING STUPID! SO FUCKING SCARED!!! JESUS CHRIST! we werent even doing anything wrong and we were on the side walk! DEATH !!!

yeah that was my day
diddly
bai.

yeah so...

2005-10-30T20:07:20Z

the party..was awsome!
it was really fucking cool
for you who didnt show up...you all suck!
and you missed out
well yeah..
i dont know
live journal..meh
very pointless
but still
yeah so for my reminder...
this is the 4th girl...sense school started
that gave me some stupid reason not to date me...
so im moving on...to the 5th
i called the 4th girl...but she ignored the call...
how do i know? b.c her phone doesnt ring..it plays a song
and it only went halfway threw the verse. and it does the whole thing
so ...yeah thats that
i got the hint
and uh..yeah
im going to the movies possibly with the 5th girl..maybe she wont treat me like crap
i just need to stop going for all those..girls..that i shouldnt.
ok
enough emo
so yeah
party=funtastic

uh
i think
i should
i dont know ok
adios done for now bai

Today sucks

2005-10-18T00:01:17Z

my dad accused me of smoking pot.
im terribly sad right now.
i told that piece of shit that i did, to gain trust last year,
its been more than a year sense i told him.
and i havnt touched it sense
fuck him
no reason either he jsut accused me randomly i didnt even say anything.
he opend the door and just said i was smoking pot agin.
i hope that fucker dies.
i hope he is happy too b.c im leaving as soon as i get a job.
im definantly never going to talk to him agin.
yeah.
this is a really big deal to me so if you think im being stupid and emo well fuck you.

hmm...

2005-10-16T17:03:20Z

so yeah..ef this game, live journals suck...fucking myspace hogs everything.
rawr
hah.
im still going to write so i can atleast remember what ive been doing.
because i tend to forget?
yeah.
this weekend...uh fuck what did i do friday?
ahhh, fuel thats right.
i was going to go to avenge seven fold but
you know...sold out and all
pissed me off because i wanted to leave at 6
b.c the show started at 7 30 but noooo
taylor secan carol alex paul daniel and brett all said oh it starts at 8 30
we are going to leave at 7 30
pft!
ive been to the meridian before! you know nothing!(i say to them)

well too bad, b.c they are giving me the ride..and..beggers cant be choosers right?
yeah i dont know this is liek the 398471290348710385 time when i tell people im right and we should listen to me but they dont and they are wrong and evrything goes wrong just because they didnt listen to me,
comon people..
i can tell the future.

but yeah so i did go to that, me and brett went to fuel instead,
saw rusted sun, great band.
and um yeah right now im smelling food
and it smells good
and im hungry
bai!

Perfect for my situation

2005-10-12T04:04:16Z

this song..is like... exactly whats happening right now wiht me and this girl
if you know...anyone reads this...
and feels like making me feel better..that would be great.

Love is a flame that can't be tamed,
and though we are its willing prey,
my darling, we are not the ones to blame

Trust is a word all lovers know
The glorious art of staining souls, my darling,
we are not the ones to blame

The more we have, the more we want,
and the more it hurts our heart, my baby,
It always ends up in tears...

So keep on pretending
our heaven's worth the waiting
Keep on Pretending
it's all right
So keep on pretending
it will be the end of our craving
Keep on pretending
it's all right...

When doubts arise the game begins
The war we will never win, my baby,
It always ends up in tears.

Love is a flame that can't be tamed,
and though we are its willing prey,
my darling, we are not the ones to blame

Hey

2005-10-08T22:40:29Z

so today.
i feel strange
i dont know why
i wish i could understand
but i really think
im not cut out for this relationship stuff, and i really cant be trusted...
i just cant make up my mind?
i dont know why
girls defeat me
jesus, i need to stop being like so.
anyways,
yeah
today, was fun, till now.
im bored now
i need to do something
im going to go find something to do.
adios
~Jesus~

heyp

2005-10-08T04:28:45Z

tonight was pretty cool,
then not.
because brent caused some unwanted drama that wasnt really drama.
people he stayed with wouldnt let him drive to jakes drunk...
when he wasnt drunk?
haha yeah
but anyways, twas fun
and tommorrow will be better.
goodnight people.
~Jesus~

headache of doom has no power over me

2005-10-05T02:16:15Z

yes i have a headache right now,
today was pretyt cool,
i saw someone specail
she made me happy
holloween party
read the entry or in myspace
do it
bitches
So hard she is trying but her heart wont turn to stone
and she keeps on crying because i wont leave alone
shell never be alone
shell be right here in my arms so in love

My dick has more friends than Tom

2005-10-04T02:33:30Z

yeah, myspace is being gay right now.
oi...
i know running all these people on this server is hard.
maybe he should take drastic measures, and delete people?
or run different servers in each state?
make it mass, i wont mind if it costs like 5$ a month
thats fine.
technology kills me..

kay yeah
list of songs my band is covering
Him-
Sweet pandimonium
Sacrament
Right here in my arms
Razorblade kiss
The verve-
bittersweet symphony
The unicorns-
I was born a unicorn
Smashing pumpkins-
quiet
Sublime-
Santerio(sp?)

yeah
interesting isnt it?
i must make the rest of the band love glam rock, so we can make music like HIM
yep.
k
bye
~jesus~

A mix of songs that explains my feelings.

2005-10-03T23:11:37Z

The world was on fire, no one could save me but you
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do
I'd never dreamed that I'd need somebody like you
And I'd never dreamed that I'd need somebody like you

Come closer, my dear
It is just the beginning of the end
Yes, I'm here for you
Save your happiness for tomorrow
And today we'll drown in your tears
A drop of your blood tastes like wine today

How long we have to wait
For love is fading so slowly
I know it's too late
Oh my god, you're so lovely

I'm in love with you
And it's crushing my heart
All I want is you
To take me into your arms

So, my love, your laughter is finally turning into tears
And you're begging for more, though the end is getting near
Come closer, my love
I'll violate you in the most sensual way
Until you drown in this love

In the grace of your love, I writhe in pain
In 666 ways, I love you, and I hope you feel the same
I'm for you
I'm for you
I'm killing myself for your love and again, all is lost
In 777 ways, I love you 'til my death do us part

I'm for you and I'm dying for your love
I'm for you and my heaven is wherever you are
I'm for you and I'm dying for your love
I'm for you and my heaven is wherever you are

I'm in love with you
And it's crushing my heart
All I want is you
To take me into your arms

Again, the burden of losing rests upon my shoulders
And it's weight seems unbearable
‘Your tomb is where your heart is,' I should have told her
But within me hid a secret so terrible

To cry is to know that you’re alive
But my river of tears has run dry
I never wanted to fool you, no
But a cold heart is a dead heart
And it feels like I’ve been buried alive by love

I'm for you and I'm dying for your love
I'm for you and my heaven is wherever you are
I'm for you and I'm dying for your love
I'm for you and my heaven is wherever you are

Your love is the only thing I live for in this world
Oh, how I wait for the day your heart burns
In these heavenly flames I'm already scorched in
I just want you to know
I'll always be waiting

I'll always be waiting, for you...

like a bomb was set off inside me

2005-10-03T03:43:56Z

it hit me, im sad...
i suck at this game

Mighty moshing emo rangers!

2005-10-03T01:51:32Z

hah, yeah...i just saw that myspace its funny...
go to it www.myspace.com/emorangers
funny funny
ok so
today was boring as hell.
sucks too because girls suck
and..i got a bag of chocolate coverd pretzils and i said matt coudl have one...but he took 4...
ahh
hahaha...yeah just kidding bout that
uh so for holloween im going to be Jeffree Star, oh sexy yes..
um yeah
i dont know not much to say today
k bye
~jesus~

halloween party

2005-10-02T00:40:33Z

hey..yeah..this is from lorrie..im to lazy to type niggers.

Attention Attention!!

HALLOWEEN PARTY!

"step out of your scene"

*everyone's invited

*Must come in costume or theres a cover charge

* SOBER PARTY! if you dont understand this meaning then dont come!!

*Bring candy or dessert, chips, small casarole yada yada bring something dont come empty handed please and thank you.

* Haunted scary scary house!bruu haha

where- perez household

when-Friday October 28

Time- 7pm-MORNING!

HOSTED BY- ME<3 Alicia (wee), julius(jesus) perez.

LORRIE-713 533 7736

ALICIA-832 527 1432

JULIUS-832 527 6954

BYEBYE